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Saturday, May 4; 23:14
Tuesday, April 23; 23:22
I have decided.
I shall go back to blogging - something I have always loved in the past.
This blog kept me alive because it is where I can air my thoughts out. It lets me put off all my frustrations, my pain and gives me relief. It's a place where I can remember the happiness I felt and helps me stay strong.
Ever since I stopped making blogskins, I didn't have the motivation to post anything. Life changes your priorities; it is strange the more I look back, but I can understand why we give up things you hold dear to keep pressing on.
Without further ado, I shall post up some of my holiday pictures when I went to Paris and London! It had amazing time there; I really wouldn't mind if I had the chance to go back there again.
These photos were left rotting in my folders for such a long time I think it ought to be time it surfaces to see the world. Enjoy :)
We'll meet again.
Saturday, January 26; 23:57
The One That Got Away
It's been almost 5 years since that faithful day I decided to start a blog to record down my daily thoughts. Looking back, it had been a roller-coaster ride.
I have a lot of resentment and regret built up because I have no idea why awful things happen to me. Maybe they were within my control, maybe they weren't. I won't know. These experiences had drove me to make decisions that affected my future. Some bad, some good. Remembering the bad decisions makes me upset about myself because I know I had the choice to choose something else.
But it is a steadfast rule that light shines brightly in the dark. One of the best things that happened to me was when I joined a club in poly. I've made friends who I love, so, so much. They made me so alive and treasured. I would never have been where I am now without them. I love you all (you know who you are).
One thing I have noticed about myself is that my personality has become more reserved and quiet. I don't like revealing my inner thoughts so easily to people because it makes me feel so exposed. I tried to be more open, but I am so wary of what people would think off me. Do you ever feel that way? Sometimes I envy those extroverted people. I am still painfully shy to strangers and take a long time to warm up to people. In my head, I always think the people around are wondering why am I so cooped up in my shell, never saying anything unless necessary. I know it's just me, maybe they really don't think this way, but I can't help it, you know? It's just a vicious cycle of endless misery.
I am trying to think very positive and change my attitude towards everything.
Perhaps I am getting there. I hope so, with all my heart.
Quoting from Wreck-It-Ralph:
Now I shall end off this post.
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